Tuesday, 4 March 2014

Quarter Life Crisis.

Quarter Life Crisis.Too many days I want to wake up already figured out, already the boss of my own company. Too many days I wish I was Cinderella, have a fairy godmother to have me looking through my company’s profits. Too many days I wish…wishful thinking will not get me anywhere. But with headlines like “Billionaire in his twenties” surfacing up more than the normal rate, I have reason to be wishful. I have reason to be fearful. Reminders stare at me everywhere.  It’s like driving on a highway and every car that hoots at you, overtakes you or even faithfully trailing behind seems to remind you that you need to pull up your socks. 




Or maybe it’s just simple fear. After all fear is what’s indirectly proportional to faith. Have I not enough faith? The fear of everyone at your level is above you and you are the only one left a notch lower. Honest I will be and confess I have been there. The ugly head of whatever is creeping in me has been poking its head too many times. At 22, I always imagined I would have my life defined, or at least past the preparation stage. But now I feel scared, skeptical and maybe not ready enough. It sounds like a joke, how can I not be ready at 22? Or is it a long shot?



Every success story has a beginning. Small beginnings you will tell me. Do not be discouraged you will tell me. This is my year. This is everyone’s year. Everyone is camping up all night for that breakthrough. Everyone wants to be above everyone. Everyone wants to set the bar for everyone else. But everyone cannot win. Forgive my realistic nature. Regardless, everyone can be different. We are different after all from the start. Everyone can find their special field and do their best and so everyone can achieve something. Embrace my hopeful nature.


You see, success is not a predictable route. Might have been, but not anymore.  Today the route to success is a car, tomorrow it’s a plane. Lucky are you when luck visits you. Proud are you when you work for it.
  


Guccio Gucci launched his business at 40. Sanders started Kentucky Fried Chicken at over 60. Lupita nyong’o is winning Oscars at 31. My point? Age does not cancel you out neither does it propel your chances. You cannot say dreams are achieved within a particular age bracket.


So as I wallow in my fear of my future, let me. Good for me actually, because it triggers action. Besides, what is courage and confidence without fear? As I stare at the horizon of doubt, let me, how else will I question to know the truth?
  


I will not convince myself there is a formula and neither will I stop my desire from burning. For as long as my passion is red hot, my dreams WILL be fulfilled.






Never, in peace or war, commit your virtue or your happiness to the future. Happy work is best done by the man who takes his long-term plans somewhat lightly and works from moment to moment. It is only our daily bread that we are encouraged to ask for. The present is the only time in which any duty can be done or any grace received.-C.S. Lewis.
 



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  1. "So as I wallow in my fear of my future, let me. Good for me actually, because it triggers action. Besides, what is courage and confidence without fear? As I stare at the horizon of doubt, let me, how else will I question to know the truth?



    I will not convince myself there is a formula and neither will I stop my desire from burning. For as long as my passion is red hot, my dreams WILL be fulfilled." One word. Poetic.

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  2. Very Nice Piece.totally captivating.

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